What Do You Mean That You Don't Know!

Do you know what's worth fighting for?

When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away

And you feel yourself suffocating?

It is completely a waste of time if I fight for you.

It's been few years back and you are still haunting my mind.

Sometimes, people tend to hate things that made them feel regret.

I worked so hard so that I can hate things lesser.

I am optimistic, yet I am extreme in things I do.

I hate you for no reason, perhaps.

People just hate things for the sake of hating

Sorry to say I am regret to know you personally.

Does the pain weight out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruin.

My heart is unbreakable but you, the particular you made me lost faith.

I will never hide because I am from the bright side

while you are so insecure and you need to hide to lick your wounds.

Maybe I am a fighter because I hate to be a loser.

Some of the things are not worth for me to fight and dying for.

It proved me right, I am better off without fighting.

I do not want to fight, but I want my lips sealed.

Sorry I will never want to be in anyone's cage,

I do not want to be trapped nor cheated.

It suffocated me, truly madly deeply.

Boys and girls are so different, literally, mentally and physically.

Sorry I am not a flower waiting for you to seed me.

I think it's hard to be with me,

I need a person who can go the flow with me,

follow my steps and never underestimate me.

Girls should be someone like this, no?

Went for interviews and most of them will ask

"What's your vision for the next five years?"

"I am a confident and proud of my career. I am not married and no child. Drive a prestige car and happy with my own life. I am more capable than now and afford to earn a better living for my family."

Surprised that I do not see myself holding hands with a guy walking down the street.

I do not see myself taking care of babies nor myself in wedding gown.

I can see myself with bunch of friends and buying stuff for my parents.

I can see myself busy with my career and full of pride, perhaps.

I am trying to live on my own.

I started to well-planned how to use my salary.

I used to be the regular customer for Guess, Topshop, ZARA, AX, Swatch and etc.

Now I started to visit Cotton On and Forever 21.

Affordable prices, can?

I am planning future for myself.

I want to pursue my dream flying in the sky

no more guitars, mics and gadgets.

I am so done with the past me, in regards of material and philosophy in life.

Boys, please go away.

Stop haunting me and expecting me to admit who you are.

Boys such a waste of time, for now.

You are my secondary choice, I am not fighting.

I am not looking at you.

I am not expecting you.

I think I am better when I stop fighting and condemning.

I realized young people have less responsibility in relationship.

They tend to play with it and take it for granted.

I have no intention to break anyone's relationship with whoever,

but, guys, please stop pretending in front of your gfs saying

I AM JUST YOUR FRIEND.

I am not interested but why you are interested in me?

I take you as friends, that's all.

When the cat out of the bag,

gfs tend to get mad over the so-called third party.

Pitiful that the third party does not interested in the bf AT ALL.

So girls, stop playing mind games there.

I have stopped playing it zillion years ago.

Grow up.

I speak up is not because for the sake of my relationship with Jan Calvin,

but my dignity don't allowed anyone to think

my taste is THAT cheap.

Who is worth for me to fight?

Nobody.

So save the energy and stop fantasize about

"OMFG, the bitch steals my bf!"