Happy 28th June 2008.

28th June 2008, 5th year and 11th month anniversary of Mr. and Mrs. Jan. ^^

We went to Melacca with one of our friends, Vincent. Three of us departed from Seremban at 4.30pm. We went there by a Samba Green Cutety. (Cute~!)

After one and a half hour, we reached Capitol Satay. A very famous restaurant in Melacca. A long queue before out turn to have our dinner.

So happy~! I've ate a lot and I was amazed with myself that I'm actually can have it with the spicy sauce. To be frank, Baby King is the King of Spicy while I seldom to eat chili cause it's too HOT~~~~ for me. So delicious and enjoying to have satay celup with Mr. Jan and Vincent. We took some pictures in the restaurant. ^^

After that, we went to Jonker Walk. We were lost and thanks to an uncle that willing to show us the way. He was on a bike and he showed us the way by asking us to follow after him. Well, there was Music Festival for Jonker Walk. Few bands were on live and they are good~! Most of them are old folks and they can play pretty good~! They play country songs and rock songs at the end of the show. We had Cendul Durian and some drinks. Vincent and I went for a tattoo stall and we had tattoo on our arms. ^^ Chinese wordings represented our names.

Mr. Jan bought me a lot of things. I wanted some book clips and stickers. I was interested with a shirt, but the color was too dull and don't suit me, sad case~! I enjoy to have a walk with him, we will talk lots of thing, talk about the people around us, talk about the sky and so many things that we can talk about. Basically, we talk all the things that we want to talk.

5 years and 11 months is a long journey to a young couple like us. Once, my mom is worrying about us. She worried both of us will abandoned our studies and always looking for each other all the time. Well~ We didn't abandoned our studies. He furthers his studies in a local music academy, and then pursues a higher education in Australia. I didn't accept the education opportunity in Australia and Singapore; I attended Form Six and Pilot Studies before I further my tertiary study in college. None of my relatives and parents is being consideration about my choices. They thought I refused to go because of Mr. Jan. What a joke~! I've explained to my mom and thankful that she's being so understanding and tried to explain to my dad about my choices.

Mr. Jan is a very understanding and lovely boyfriend. To be frank, I am so full of tempered and people can just light me on like matches, easily. He been so passion and lead me to the better me today. I started learn to control myself and always consider other perspectives on everything. He fulfilled my mentally needs. Whenever I need someone, he will always be there for me. I can't take granted on my boyfriend, and thought this is what a boyfriend for. I can be so miserable and terrible towards him, he takes it back and never shouted at me. He will try to talk to me softly. But whenever I still being so stubborn, he will stop talking to me and pinch my hand. Ouch~!

My relatives said I'm a tough girl. If I'm a business woman, I will be a very successful woman. I have no mercy on opponents, and prefer to put them down in a harsh way. I was so no mercy that time. Mr. Jan taught me a better way. He said we should have mercy on people ‘cause we might making their lives hard if we do it that way.

My family loves Mr. Jan. My grandparents remember his name and always ask me to invite him to our family dinners. My aunts from Singapore said he's a lover boy with a sweet smile. They said we are not a good match of couple because I don't have a lovely face like his. They don't believe that I actually listen to his advices and I won't go out if he doesn't allow me to hang out at the particular time. For example raining day or at night.

My mom said he spoiled me lots. My mom asked Mr. Jan not to fulfilled my needs and terrible requests. Sometimes, I said I want to have dinner in Jogoya, and then he'll finish his works as soon as possible and bring me there. I know it is so terrible, but at last I will ask him to bring me supper in mamak stall. 'Cause Jogoya is really far from my house, haha~!

I'm not terrible. I just love being to be loved and love seeing him to do something for me. (Evil~!) I was so touched when I received the very first letter between us from him. I was in Form 4 and we normally will meet each other before we go to school every morning. We were from different school and the only chances to meet other were during tuitions. When I reached my school, I will stop by at my bestie's house that located just two blocks away from his house. My friends handed me a letter. I opened it and I realized it's a love letter from him. (Sweet~!)

So, since then, we wrote love letter to each other almost every day. Then one the third month of the relationship, he created a website for us. He made it like a diary and wrote blog every time after we met each other. He uploaded the photos and write some impressing sentences inside. I was touched, seriously~! I thought it's a girl's job to do that. He did it for me and I really can feel that it's more that puppy love and first love.

The way he treated me.. More than having a girlfriend. He put in his commitments and efforts to build a very big house for this relationship. Ever since we started the relationship, he never call me “wife” like other couples will do~! He said :"I will call you by the title, if I able to give you a house and commit my life and responsible for the relationship." I told my mom and she said :" It's hard to find a mature boy like him." He saved up his money and always get the best for me.

He never leaves me behind, but me. So many times I asked for breakup. I didn't care bout the consequences and just letting it burst out from my mouth. I got angry with him and I went out with the particular asshole that admired me till death. (I called him ass hole cause he's an idiot and I hate him to the core, now~!) I made Mr. Jan angry on purpose and I was really thinking of breakup. He asked for meet up but I refused to meet him. I still remember that day was the exact day of our 3rd year anniversary. I broke his heart and I am so sorry about it, till now.

Time goes by. We're looking forward a better future. I have my bigger picture now. Once, I will not allowed him to gather with his girl-friends, furthermore, most of them admires him. Those girls are so open-minded and way too stupid. 'Cause they're stupid enough to confess their feelings to him, and posted their loves toward Mr. Jan through MSN and Friendster. But, I've changed. I learned it from my experiences. I have admirers in my college. I hate them so much and for me, they are just a bunch of parasite and losers. I told Mr. Jan my feelings towards them and convinced him that I won't have feelings on those people. Then he told me : " Do you think you will happy if I stop you to make friends with any guys just to prevent you will have feelings on them?" "No, I will think you're so..." Yeah~! I understand! I got him! So, from now on, whenever I found out some of his students and his friends' friends have feelings on him, I am playing cool with it ‘cause I know Mr. Jan won't have feelings on them, like what I did on those admirers of mine.

My friends being so understanding and they comfort my angers very well. They told me : " You can't stop others to love him or make confession to him. You are a girl and you should know how hard to control your love toward a guy that attracted you so much. " Yeah~! Like I always looking for a chance to talk to my pretty junior boys. Whenever they talked to me, I will put a very sweet smile on my face and tell them : "You guys are so cute and pretty." Yeah~! I can't control my feelings on them. They have pinkish lips and so cute~!

I condemn the restaurant girl two years back. Firstly, I knew bout her through her very own best friends. They called me up and told me about how she felt towards Mr. Jan. She was planning to get him from me. What I really understand was: A bitch wants to triumph a Queen? What a joke~! So, I waited the chance she gets closer to him. I did it all behind the wall, nobody knew bout my plans, but my sisters. At last, she got closer. Mr. Jan told me that she was interested to join a band and she asked for a chance to interview. I said : " Why not? " Let's see how stupid and bitchy she is. I told my sisters bout the interview, they wanted to come but I stopped them. I want to do it on my own.

I was in full-pilot uniform when I met her. She was in mini short pants and transparent singlet. Oh gawk~! She was actually making Mr. Jan's parents hate her for being so C***P. That was the first time she went to his studio and this is how she dressed? Whatever~!

I went out with Mr. Jan to buy my dinner. Oh I have forgotten I left the bitch at the kitchen. So I went out from the car again and look for her. Oh there she was. She entered Calvin's studio room without permission. She even stepped into Calvin's wardrobe and checking something. I stood there for few minutes just to observe what she's doing. I switched on the light and shocked her to death. I was smiling devilish and she didn't dare to pass through me just to get out from the room. I moved and leave a way for her to get out.

Long story after that and before I dumped her harshly in front of her father's restaurant. She refused to get out from the car ‘cause she said her father didn't know she went out. She told lies to her father that she wanted to be at home and study. I pressed the horn and her father rushed out with a scoop. Like a zany comedian. Haha~! She had to get down from the car anyhow. I was so enjoy seeing her whack by her father in front of the customers. I guess she cried her lungs out cause she always acting like a daddy's girl and put a great image of her parents. (Woo~! My parents love me a lot, they won't scold me, they pay for my shopping bills~)

Want to triumph me? Dream on~!

This is the only best memory of me condemning a bitch. I enjoyed it and my friends shouted out " BRAVO!!!!" when I told them the stories. They said : " We love you so being so Roslyn." But for now, I don't think I will do the same thing again. I've made her life so hard and she hardly to walk with nose up for few years. It's too harsh for a daddy's girl wannabe, aight?

A bigger picture of mine. I can't stop others to love Mr. Jan. Everyone has the right to love somebody. I am nobody to stop them and like my friends said : " You should thankful dude~!" Yeah, I should. At least my boyfriend is not a bread-face-singlet-gay. Like the bitch's. I have things that others don't. The relationship between us is so close and mentally intimate. We know what we want and we always can read each other's mind. Look at the people around us. They still living in a fairy tale world. Love is everything; they argued and argued all the time. This relationship is more than that. We can live at the opposite side of the world, fall apart but the bond between us, gives us the strength to work hard and looking forward the next time to meet again.